Pausing to make space

It is time to make some changes with this business.

I want to start by saying thank you to all of you for giving me the chance at one point or another to capture your family memories in photographs. Some of you have been with me since I operated under my Squishy Prints Photography name. Your support has always meant so much to me. Thank you for letting me capture the essence of your family.
Family is very important to me. In the last few years I have found myself struggling to maintain a balance of time with my own family, as well as working in the health care system, and operating a photography business. It is with a sad heart that I have decided to put my business on hold for a while. I need to spend more time with my family before my children grow-up. At this time, I don’t believe this is a permanent closure, but just a pause for the next year or two. It is time for me to make more space in my life to breathe and be a better parent and wife.

This is now farewell, just a little, see you later.

Much love to you all.
XO
Ally

Letter to my Littles | June 2016

Welcome to another installment of my letters to my littles – a glimpse of our life with two busy boys!

Dear Caleb and Liam,

June has been one of the busiest months we have had yet! It’s hard to believe the year is already half over.

This month we celebrated your 11th birthday Caleb.  You had your birthday party planned for months – dinner at Japanese Village followed by a sleepover with some friends.  Dinner was fabulous!  (Liam you spent the night at your buddy Owen’s house and had fun there).  Caleb, I believe “sleep-over” is a loose term.  I think you all went to sleep around 3am.  I’m not totally sure, as I fell asleep long before you all did.

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We have reached the end of another school year, and what a busy one it’s been.  This last month especially has been filled with field trips, fun days and so much volunteer time at the school.  (I’m tired – but you are both worth it). Caleb you finished grade five, and also finished your time in elementary school.  It’s a bittersweet – you have been there for 6 years.  I know you are ready to move on to middle school. I’m not sure my mama heart is ready for you to move on though.  Liam you got kicked out of kindergarten.  You finished your year with a pool party!  It was quite a send off for you and your big kindergarten year.

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You also had your year end wrap up with Beavers and Cubs.  Caleb you have jumped up from Cubs to Scouts, and are excited for the new adventures that await you in the fall.

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The last thing you got to do with Cubs was the year end trip to the Horne Lake caves.  You loved it.  Dad said you went rappelling down the advanced side!

While you and dad were at the caves, Liam and I went went to Navy Days.  We got to see so many things on the navel base.  You loved it Liam.

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We celebrated father’s day with lots of homemade presents for daddy.

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As a family we have been trying to take advantage of the nice weather.  Summer is finally here!  We went to Beach Food Friday at Esquimalt Lagoon. We had burgers and poutine, followed by a fire with our new fire bowl. It was so much fun.  We will definitely be doing this again.

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We wrapped up June with a camping trip with some of my work friends up at Living Forest Campground.  You were both thrilled to find out some classmates were there at the same time.  You both got along really well with Cohen and Noah too.  Caleb you and Cohen had fun going off on your own to fish or explore.  Liam, you and Noah created a new game “crazy birds” – which translates to: let go crazy and  throw around everything we can see.  Our tent broke while we were camping and there may have been a few falls from the hammock, but it was a really fun trip and great way to kick off our summer.

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I’m looking forward to all the adventures that await us in the next couple of months.

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I love you both – my 6th grader and my 1st grader…ugh!!

Love,
Mom
XOXO

Letter to my Littles | April 2016

Welcome to another installment of my letters to my littles – a glimpse of our life with two busy boys!

Dear Caleb and Liam,

It’s been another fun and busy (and slightly stressful) month.  We celebrated two birthdays – mine and and Liam’s!  Mine was spent picking out a new kitchen at Ikea and chasing you both around Science World.  The day trip to Vancouver was fun, but exhausting!

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Caleb you learned a very hard lesson about being responsible for your things.  You left behind a small backpack at Ikea with a book, your iPod charger, your Nintendo DS and a few games, and $25. We called the Ikea security desk several times but these seem to be gone forever.  Sorry Caleb – a tough life lesson for sure.

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But we did end up with a new family pet – a unicorn named Agnes!

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Liam, your birthday celebrations were much more fun.  In addition to all the cakes you had with family, you had all your friends help you celebrate with a big Lego party.  Every person you invited came.  This also meant that we now own every Lego set in existence! You are such a well loved little boy.  It’s hard to believe you are 6 already.  Thank you for filling our lives with so much joy.  I love your zest for life.  The other day I found you lying on the front lawn professing your love of Spring time!  Then later you told me you often have trouble falling asleep at night and waking in the morning.  You said that you thought you were nocturnal and that maybe you should become a bat.  Seriously.  You crack me up!

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Your new cousin Ethan was born the day before your birthday Liam.  He is the cutest little baby!  You are both smitten with him.  Me too!

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Caleb you went with your best buddy Bryson to BrickCan in Vancouver for his birthday.  It’s shocking how much you have grown up  that you are now leaving the island on trips without us!  You are both so well loved by your friends.  In fact, everyday the doorbell rings with neighbourhood kids asking you to come outside and play.  It warms my heart to see how much others enjoy your company.

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Thanks for all you patience as we start our big renovation project.  I can’t wait to cook and bake with you both in our new kitchen!

And here’s this month’s video – all about you Liam and all your birthday Lego!

I love you both,
Mama

XO XO

Letters to my Littles | March 2016

Welcome to another installment of my letters to my littles – a glimpse of our life with two busy boys!

Dear Caleb and Liam,

March has completely flown by so quickly!  This was the month I left you all to spend a few days with some fantastic photography friends.  (But you two hardly missed me).  Thanks to the inspiration and renewed energy I got from that trip I took a million pictures this month.  So this letter has a lot of images (fair warning!)  March was also the month of the world’s looooooooooongest spring break ever.march web

We did a lot of fun things!  During my time off with you we went and explored some beaches.  We hike the Pike Road trail of East Sooke Park and had some fun in the tide pools of Iron Mine Bay. Caleb you were like a mountain goat climbing up to the top of a rock.  You were so good at helping your brother and I up too.  The view was amazing!

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We also had a Beacon Hill park day with the goats at the petting zoo. (Those photos will have to wait a little as I shot them on my film camera).  We had peacocks circling our car that day too.

We then had another day at East Sooke Park with dad.  It was fun to run through the shore line, try to build castles and have you both creating things in the sand.  We ended that day with dinner at My Chosen Cafe.

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Unfortunately when we got home we found out our washing machine had flooded the house.  That’s a whole other big story.  But it is also the reason Spring Break kind of went down hill from there. Dad didn’t get to do as much fun stuff with you both as he wanted to during his time off with you.

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We did manage to get a few hours in Sidney to explore the aquarium and the park.

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We also did a day trip to Salt Spring Island.  Although you both weren’t sure at first, you did like looking around at the Salt Spring Market and Ruckle Park.  You both loved the sheep farm, the taco truck and the toy store!

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We also found some time to just relax at our local beach spot, dig in the sand, climb the logs and fly the kite.

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So all in all, it was a pretty fun spring break despite the chaos in the house.

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We also celebrated Easter!  We glittered the eggs this year.  Fun while we were doing it, but messy as we are trying to eat the eggs.  On Easter morning you were both thrilled by items the Easter Bunny left.  When you opened up some gummy bunnies Liam, you exclaimed “These are just like the ones we used to find at great grandma’s house”.  I’m so glad you remembered her.  Easter egg hunting at great-grandpa and great-grandma’s  was definitely not the same without poh-poh.  This is the last of the hard holidays.  You two are both so sweet to me still whenever I get sad.

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I’ve put together another little family film.  This is all about our Spring Break adventures.  I’m so glad to have these fun little snippets of our life together.

I love you always,
Mama

XO XO

Letters to my Littles | February 2016

Welcome to another Letters to my Littles post.  After reading my letter please go to my friend Christine’s blog and read her letter to her littles. Keep following the links to see glimpses of motherhood from everywhere. Thanks for joining me as I write these love letters to my children.

Dear Caleb and Liam,

It’s been another busy month in our house.  We’ve all battled colds and sniffles. Ugh!  Between daddy’s snoring (from his stuffed up nose) and you crawling into bed with us because you feel unwell, it’s also been a bit of a sleep deprived month!IMG_9438

We did manage to get out and get some fresh air during family day.  We went out and did the Lego Fest again in Sidney, then enjoyed some time at the water. It’s been wonderful to see sunshine hitting your faces again.

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We also celebrated Valentine’s day. This year we started a new family tradition.  We set up a little Valentine tree on our dining table and we left little love notes for each other.

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Caleb, this month I attended a parent info night at your middle school./  It still shocks me that you will be in middle school in September.  Meanwhile, Liam this month you celebrated the 100th day of kindergarten. You had to dress up like a 100 year old person. You also had to do a project with 100 items – so we made a monster with 100 googly eyes! I’m so thankful we don’t celebrate 200th day!

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We also went on a photo walk together out to Whiffin Spit.  I took along my digital and film cameras and let you play with the G12 Caleb, and let Liam play with the Instax mini.  It was fun despite the rain.  I took these…

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Caleb took these…

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Liam took these…

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At the end of that day we say this beautiful rainbow!

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But by far my favorite photos of the month are these family ones we took over valentine’s weekend.  I love these photos – they remind me of how much I love you both!

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Here is our February film about how most of our weekends are:

Love,
Mama
XO XO

What’s in a name

As many of you have noticed, I am now operating under a new business name – my own name.  I have been known as Squishy Prints Photography for a long time now, and it is a name that will always be near and dear to my heart.  But over the course of time I have come to outgrow Squishy Prints and all that it has represented.

When I was pregnant with my first child, my husband once put his hand on my moving belly, and in his best Ellen DeGeneres Dory impression he said “I shall name him Squishy and he shall be all mine!”  Somehow that little nickname stuck, and our little boy was our Squishy for the first year of his life. During that first year of motherhood I took thousands of photos of my little Squishy and his baby friends.  I was the mommy with the camera, always snapping photos and then handing out prints to people.  I have always taken photos, and have always been a bit of a photographer – learning how to shoot manually on a film camera long before my Squishy was born.  But the combination of having a child and having a new digital camera opened up a world of possibilities, and way more shutter clicks than is logical! At some point I decided to share my love of photography with others outside my family and friends circle.  I decided to try my hand at a small business. That business needed a name.  Since most of my work started as photographs and photographic design build around my first child and his milestones, Squishy Prints Photography was born.

I have long since deleted that first free blogger website that I started with – no one needs to see my creative edits with sepia tones, selective coloring, over-sharpened eyes and fancy vignetting! Thankfully, my days of over-editing are long gone and I have gone back to clean, real images. My days of extensive props and set-ups are also long gone.  My poor second child was subjected to many experiments with bowls, lights, chairs, rugs and any other fun trendy prop that came my way.  Don’t even get me started on my knitted newborn hat collection! Oy! While I have a great collection of newborn images full of cute curled naked baby poses, I started to realize this was no longer the type of photography I wanted to do.

Squishy Prints Photography was about me mastering newborn poses, and getting families perfectly posed in good light.  It was me trying to follow posing and prop trends and trying to master these looks.  As I look back on the images I was once proud of (and truthfully am still proud of), I realize that they lack the deeper emotional connection that I seek now.

Over the last couple of years I have worked hard at rediscovering what I truly love about photography.  I have found my photographic voice and my love of story-telling through images. I have learned to see light again, and in new ways.  I have learned how to use shadows to my advantage and to really analyze a scene before I get shutter happy. I have learned to take images that have feeling.  This is an ongoing journey.  It always will be.  I have learned that this is not something that I will ever seek to master – but a long fulfilling journey that I am travelling on.

So welcome to my new journey.

I will keep www.squishyprints.com for the next little while, and I am slowly working on migrating some of my blog posts and images from that site to this one.  But the time has come for me to mature a little more, and to be a little more humble, a little more raw and a little more brave.

Welcome to Allyson Ell Photography.